Something's Achangin', For the Better

It's been a slow, crawling change.  I've almost not noticed.  Many, many times i haven't noticed it.  I've been too involved in the unimportant, the "little" things -- like in twenty years, dirty dishes are going to matter.  I have four funny, silly, wonderful, bright daughters.  They, like myself, can be a handful.  We have, collectively 18 pets, and of course, enormous vet bills.  All in good time, all in good time.  Despite my wonderful husband's inherent uninterested in animals, when one of the guinea pigs got her leg caught in a hammock, it was he who said, "How can you put a price on a life -- even hers?" So, $750 later little Nellie's leg was amputated, only to have had the infection infiltrate her body, beyond what we could help and she passed away a week later.  She is buried in our yard, with quite a few other guinea pigs.  (May they never dig up a yard for anything!)  Did he say "I told you so"?  No.  For the spunky little pony, with penal cancer, it's chemo therapy periodically, so he's not in pain, though likely it has spread.  Again, no repercussions.

My writing, which was so much of my soul, for all of my life, took at back seat to anxiety, mental depression, alcohol, dirty laundry, dishes, and the silly mundane things.  Today I read the story of a girl, a wonderful girl, creative, vibrant who was born just two weeks prior to my Brett, and died just shortly after her 16th birthday of thyroid cancer.  Yet there are videos of her laughing with her favorite author.  Her Facebook page shows her joy in life.  This summer we lost a very dear friend who could no longer bear what pain she had, and took her life at 20 years old.  Kiki was a live wire, and one who is truly a part of our daily lives, certainly mine as I watch, get frustrated with, and ultimately, love my own four daughters.

So, it's time to get off my duff, and be thankful to my Higher Power that I have what I have.  That I'm sober, that I can see the sunlight today and feel the crisp air that the morning brought with it.  It truly is a time for changing my outlook in life, and for life, for that's all we have.  Today.  May you find peace and joy in your day!